the sadness descends like the moon on its preoccupied planet and it starts. 

the feeling starts. the feeling erupts through 12 hours crust of laugh of smile of laugh then smile then don’t cry don’t you dare start to cry. 

but then I do. because I can. because the darkness allows me to. 

and before I can breathe again, before my lungs have expanded, the sun is back. 

the sun is back and he is so much meaner today.